more than a year

what took me this long.. i don't know, i guess i know but i don't want it... Sometimes i write when i'm extremely happy and when im so sad.. Well, today i fil both.. There is this question that kept bugging me the whole day? Would you love someone: who loves you because he/she needs you or who needs you because he/she loves you... I love dis person so much, and today i've realized that i need him in my life because i love him... Someone told me before that we don't need anybody to make us complete..we are complete with God alone..so if one day someone you love leaves you, the line that says i'm nothing without him coz he completes me is unacceptable..you see, he has a life of his own and if he leaves you, life must go on. i am complete, and if i'm with the person i love, the more that i'm complete... i am strong and when i'm with him, i become stronger. things should be like this...don't love me coz i need you rather love me coz YOU LOVE ME. seeing someone strong shouldn't make you feel weak.. look at it as a challenge,be strong on your own. do your best to become as strong as that person. if you can become stronger, the better. i guess true love is so hard to find..at this very moment, love is telling me to be weak to be with the person i love. and i don't know if i should feel sorry for i can't be weak... if you can't love me for who i am, then you haven't seen my worth yet.. if you're not challenged by this and i still keep on loving you, then i'll end up not doing what i used to believe in. why should i love someone who can't stand on his own and who believes to love someone who needed him more than i do when the truth is it appears that he is as weak as that person that he chose. hahaha, what am i saying ba... i keep on convincing myself things that i don't know how to handle.. well things that my mind can handle but no matter what i do, my heart jus't can't. i guess this is what they say na true love, hahahaha. sabi nga ni ate glends, if it makes you happy, go on. i need you coz i love you. if you can't love me for who i am, it's okay.. still i will keep on loving you. i believe love should be unconditional. if loving you alone makes me strong, come to think of it if you love me too.. then i'll be the strongest person that i'll ever be.. same as if you love me not coz i neeeded you but coz you just love me... that loving me alone makes you strong...and if i love you too, then you should feel stronger... feeling strong WHEN YOUR WITH THE ONE YOU LOVE is not enough.. you should feel STRONGER... to the sense that that feeling alone, you can actually say that truly.. love conquers everything.... how i wish you can read my mind everytime we're together.. i love you and i will keep on loving you. call me stupid or insane for loving someone who says he cares and love me, but we are not together---i don't care. all i know is that i love you and that's it.. i got tired of asking too many WHYs'... now with even a 1% hope of WHAT IF, i'll keep on holding on that ONE DAY, YOU WILL KNOCK AT MY DOOR and say that... I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE COZ I LOVE YOU... this is what love is...if it doesn't work with you, it works with me... and i'm okay with it.. one day, you will feel the same... goodluck...