let things be if it should be

sad kapag alam mo na what you see is not the real thing...minsan, i keep on asking myself.. Who am i with? it hurts so bad, now hindi ko na alam kung ano ang totoo. sino ka kapag kasama mo ako, sino ka kapag kasama mo ang iba.. lately, hindi na ako masaya...or when in with you, hindi na ako tulad ng dati.feeling ko stranger na ang kasama ko..sad to hear but it's the truth.akala ko kaya ko, kasi just like what i've been telling you, we're old enough na to deal with things as such..pero hindi pala..minsan kapag alang acknowledgement mapapagod ka rin..yup, medyo napapagod na ako or siguro nagsasawa na or nasasaktan na.. andami ko na gustong gawin for you lalo na ngayon na alam kong andami mo na inaalala... pero naisip ko, why should i? then what? yeah, nagiging selfish na ako, pero nasasaktan na kasi ako... nagiging katulad ka na niya..you said she needed you kaya anjan ka...now feeling ko anjan ka coz you needed me..no, things shouldn't be like that...nagiging manhid ka na..antigas ng puso mo and i have to stay away for some time kasi nagiging katulad na rin kita and ayoko ng ganun.. i used to know someone who had such a loving heart, who was so sweet and all.but now, i've finally lost him though i been hoping maibabalik ko siya pero mas lalo ko lang nararamdaman na i can't because everytime were together lagi mo pinaparamdam sa akin na i am not enough.. i don't wanna end up having a stone heart..i love to love and i'll continue loving in any way that i can...i still hope that you'll come back, the real you..but for now, siguro mas maige ang ganito...it hurts so much knowing na no matter what you do, hindi ka talaga kayang mahalin ng taong pinakamamahal mo.i guess hindi naman sa sumusuko ka na, pero there are times na kailangan mo na ring tumigil siguro para na lang sa sarili mo..as long as you knew na you've done na your best, then stop na.if he's not meant for you, then he's not. sana magpatuloy na ako na ganito coz ayoko na magalit sayo and magalit eventually sa sarili ko. siguro for now, i'll love you sa sarili ko na lang na paraan..ala saysay if di mo alam pero at least hindi mo ako nasasaktan and better na di mo alam coz to be honest, i think sa ngayon, you don't deserve my love, no one does... be happy..i hope you're happy with how you live your life now...