it is better to have loved and lost, than never love at all...
a year have passed and the pain is still there.
killing me every night, a heartache that is felt by my whole body.
it's like bone cancer, they say is the most painful of all among its kind.
i used to believe that as a girl, u shoudn't beg for someone to come back if he choses to leave.
but i was wrong. if its true love,

if you really knew in your heart

that you love that person with all your heart, mind and soul...
you don't mind doing the best you can to have him back...
even doing things that are against your principle, what you believe,
and what is right in the eyes of the people whose opinions truly affects you.
i may have endured different kinds of suffferings already,
well i can say that not being loved by the person you love so much is the most painful of all..
the time i've spent with him is the happiest moment of my life.
i don't know if ill ever love someone again the way i have loved him.
every day the pain grows, it's like it has a root of its own that tries
to penetrate the innermost part of my being.
sometimes telling me to stop and oftentimes telling me to go on.
just today, somebody told me that he loves me very much and asked me

if he can go and forever be gone.
it's only now that i've realized why he asked such..
it's as if the pain that he was carrying strucked me and surely,

it damn hutrs through the bone...
ive never had a friend like him but if letting him go

would help him ease the pain, i will.
actually i misses him at this very moment and i envy him so...
the courage it took him to do that, how i wish i have it too..
now i'm confused, don't know what to do and all.
if i leave, will he stop me from leaving or

will he do the same thing that i just did to my friend.
they say if you love someone, set him free.
if he comes back to you, he's yours.
if it doesn't, then it was never meant to be..
ever since i'm afraid to make big risks...
coz i'm afraid to fail and get badly wounded..
but now i guess this is different.
you are free now..
remember that i will always love you

and that i will never ever forget you..
maybe the line "happily ever after" just doesn't suit me.
again, it is better to have loved and lost, than never love at all..
i love you.